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Name: Maddie
Birthday: 11/26/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: mmhh Josh, Kyle, Brian, and Jermy*yeah Purple Door 2005*soccer*snowboarding* tennis*boys*shopping*ryan cabrera*HG* sager*talking on the phone*running* PYG*camp penn*sharkies*shoes*sleeping*the notebook*lylapomf<3*monkey*holding hands*prank calling people*baseball boys*ASHLEY*the BOAT family*peter pan*late night talks with the girls*sycamore*that fish of mine*megan mcfarland*mocha mooos*snow angels*hot chocolate*having the greatest friends in the world*the wife*having fun*learning to trust people*sticking with the true ones*singing*being a goof*enhancing the little kid in myself*snowball fights*being tackled in the snow*haiti*working with kids*star watching*shopping*church*submarines*being a mother to my friends*worring about everything*squirells*garfield*listening to all my life 77 times in a row*hiding in my closet when im upset*cooking*cow bell players*walks in the snow*rain*running untill i can't anymore*
Expertise: SQUIRLL HUNTING! <3
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Member Since:
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i love you nathan lee<3
words cannot begin to express how i feel for you..
i hope our relationship grows closer..
to create an unbreakable bond between the two of us..
youaremyoneandonly<3
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| no i havent forgot about this thing but i really only write when i have thoughts on something...and now is one of those times::
so this past week was differnet for me. and im not sure how things
really turned out. i had a lot of ups and downs and alot of different
feelings and well it all was very overwhelming. but friday to saturday
was the lockin at my church and i think i got alot out of it. first off
just being there made me realize how comfortable i am in the church. i
realized that its like a second home to me. its just undescrible how
comfortable i feel there. it was just weird that it came to me at that
point and time. the time when i was struggling the most and needed to
be comforted. alot of thoughts went through my mind through out the
night. and im not gonna lie they all weren't good and i didnt like all
of them but im glad they crossed my mind cause it helped me work
through the time. i had reached a point this past week where i felt
like i meant nothing to anyone. and when i say everyone i mean
everyone. its just a feeling that i felt...im not sure what triggered
it but it made me second guess alot in my life. like the friendships i
have and the realtionship i was in. and i felt those feelings for most
of the week. but friday night something hit me. something made me
realize that i am by far the luckiest girl. i have the greatest friends
anyone could ask for and the most amazing boyfriend a girl could ask
for. but i still didnt fully believe it. there was something holding me
back..untill this morning...when i helped out with a presentation on
haiti..thats when it all came down ::
i realized that since i've gotten back i've changed...but along the
school year i got caught up in things...and i wasnt the same person
that i was when i first came back...i so easily forgot how much more i
have then those down there. down there the friendships and the
relationship that i have up there would be something girls my age would
die for...to just know that one person cares and loves them. looking at
the pictures and recapping on the stories made me start to cry. i miss
me. i miss the old me. the one who cared about everyone and everything.
haiti changed my life. and i'm not afraid to say that. i guess what i
am trying to say is that i've taken for granted what i have. the mother
and brother, the friends, the boyfriend, the shelter, the food, the
fellowship and just all around the life that i have. i take it all for
granted. sitting here typing this makes me realize that i have so much.
and so much to live for. i dont deserve what i have. what have i done
in this life of mine to have such amazing best friends...or let alone a
boyfriend who treats me so wonderful. theres so many others out there
who deserve the relationship and friendships more than me...so this is
where i found myself asking...why me?
why me? and i still dont know to this point...why ashley, kristine, and
megan put up with me...or why jesse, brett and kyle hang out with me or
why ben likes me...but i do know that i have them...that i have each
and every one of them. and oh goodness im so thankful for it. i take
them for granted. but i realized that im blessed to have them...cause
some people would die for the friendships that i have with them.
this entry wasnt meant to sound depressing or anything...if you read it
the right way and interpet the way its meant to be interpeted you'll
realize that through out this week i found out something about myself.
and that im lucky that i was able to find it out. i'm blessed in this
journey we call life. i'll leave it at that.
iloveyou<3
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umm so the cloud came down..and i've reached an all time low. i hate
thinking about these things...but when it's reality i don't know how
else to handle it. i just hope it all gets better soon...cause this is
a feeling i havent had in a long, long time...and i really am not sure
how to handle it. new year, new start? god i hope it all goes well. i
guess this is all i have to say. don't know when i'll update again.
until then:::
absolutes are hidden
i've buried my convictions
i cannot be blind no more
numb to what i'm living for
help me stop this compromise
that justifies these lies
i need your passion in this life
barlow girl-->grey
iloveyou<3
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| mm so look who's updating...hah it's about time i know...just be quiet...haha..
anyways...alot has happened lately i guess i can say...umm since the
last time i updated the weekends have mostly been just hanging out with
the crew aka those boats...haha ummm things have been busy...boy oh boy
have they ever been busy...
last week was the last week of school before christmas vacation...i was
at the mall monday, tuesday and im pretty sure wednesday night too. i
was a last minute shopper...but i got it all in...worked on my
chocolate spoons w/ hot chocolate everynight that week...just worked on
getting everything ready for that holiday season...lol you know...so
thursday was the last day...umm woke up and went to my doctors appt.
then went and got my permit...umm yeah I PASSED! haha so it's a scary
thought me being on the road...haha so mom let me drive some of the way
to school...got there...passed out the goodie bags and gave gifts to
megan, sager, and hayley...and i must say i aboustley adore the gift
hayley got me...umm not to much more about that. kristine came home on
the bus with me and ashley and those two got off at my stop...did the
gift exchanging thing...wow they are amazing...we pretty muched laughed
the whole time we were together...i love those girls! so they
left...and i went out with dad one last time to finish the final
christmas stuff...came back here...grabbed some stuff then my mom and i
went to pick up ben...from there we headed over to my brothers
basketball game...met up with brett and jesse and we all chilled and
watched my brother play basketball...haha afterwards we all went out to
friendlys with my mom and my brother...haha some very good times...took
ben home..i came home and pretty muched crashed..lol.
friday...lets see here...ashley left for flordia...that killed
me...lol. man i miss her like whoa! lol its just not the
same...anyways...i babysat ALL day that day...and when i say all day i
mean all day...lol...and then i was up till 2 wrapping gifts for one of
the ladys..lol hey atleast i got payed...finally went to bed around 2.
mmm saturday was christmas eve...got up and got ready...headed out to
new oxford for my dads side christmas eve...got some cute stuff..and
money! came back and did my dad's christmas...digital camera...that
rocked! haha came home and showered and got ready again...went to
church service at 7. after that went and picked up ben and jesse at
ben's and we headed over to my uncles for my moms side christmas
eve...that was fun...watched some of mean girls..came back here and
gave ben his gift...and well i must say he got me the most beautiful
gift ever..i didnt know what to say...so hung out here for a little
then we went and took jesse home..telling my mom to go all the long
ways...haha then we left jesses...got to bens and realized jesse forgot
his gift we got him...went back to his house to drop it off...went back
to bens...after getting my mom lost...hah so yeah ben finally got
home...came back here and went to bed.
sunday..CHRISTMAS! ahh it was a wonderful one at that..got some very
cute things...just kinda was lazy allll day...later that night we went
to see a movie...its a christmas tradition...saw cheaper by the
dozen...it was an awesome movie lemme say...lol came back here and just
hung out...
monday...woke up at the butt crack of dawn and i mean 430...haha was at
khols by 6. went around and did some other shopping. got some jeans and
some other things..came home and took at nap till about 11. got up and
got a shower and got ready. ben picked me up and we went to his
grandma's for a little christmas get together...saw the train set ben
put together...absoutely beautiful...played now you have it now you
don't...awesome game..and then watched polar express...very cute
movie...after that he brought me home after taking all the long
ways...hung out here untill it was time for him to leave to make it
home before curfew...got on here...and then went to bed.
tuesday...slept in till god knows when...haha i was tired...got up and
showered and got ready...ben picked me up once again and we went and
met his family at hoss' for 4 birthday dinners...celebrating his, his
sisters and two of his cousins...that was pretty sweet...after that we
went to the mall for awhile...lef there and went to target and saw
brett...then headed out to old navy only to find out that it was
closed...came back here hung out untill it was time for him to
leave...amazing night if i say so myself...got on here and then headed
to bed.
today...umm didnt do much. went and played bingo with my dad and my
brother and my grandparents..that was well funn i guess..made 20 bucks
for sitting there reading a magazine...can't complain...haha came back
here and just got on here...and finally updating this thing...haha i
know it's long overdue...
soo umm plans for the rest of this week...who knows...news years
eve...well its bens birthday so hopefully something with him...and
ashley comes back that day so maybe something with her tooo...who
knows...haha
well ski club starts soon...totally wishing i could be on the slopes
this year...no worries though...i'll be there next year...hands down!
so lately i've just been on this cloud...that has yet to come
down...i've just been nothing but happy...i mean i have the 4 best
friends anyone could ask for and 3 of us have such a tight bond
formed...i can trust those 3 with anything...and they are always making
me laugh and well i couldn't ask for more....and the other one...well
we've been through it all from 6th grade when she first moved
here...and yet where we stand today is just living proof that nothing
can seperate us as friends...we may not always hang out or be by each
others side all the time but shes just one of those friends that i know
i can go to for anything...shes apart of my family...and she knows im
always here for her...
then there's this boy...who well idk...things are just going so
amazing...i mean he says all the right things at exactly the right
times...he's my best guy friend who i know i can trust...which is
something new for me...cause every other guy i've ever trusted in my
life has let me down in some way or another...and with him...it feels
different...like he won't let me down...he won't be like those other
guys...and that makes me so happy...just like he does...i'm falling for
him...and im loving every second of it...<3
well it's late and i have an early morning so im gonna go...hope everyone is having an awesome break!
ohh yeah...i most def. can't wait to go squirell hunting...we will someday!! --> iloveyou! <3
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okay so i'm home...hah and have been for about a week now...i just have
been so busy with makin up work and gettin thing together for christmas
that i havent had time to update.
so Haiti...nothing short of amazing..i gained so much from the trip
that i won't be able to say it all...but some of the highlights of the
trip...the kids are number one. for those of you who dont know me..lol
i love working with kids..and so this was perfect. but these kids were
different. they weren't your typical american kid who dreads going to
school...they had a passion for learning...a passion that i have never
seen before. the first thing they wanted to show us was their
"offices"(desks). they would tell us about their school work and their
teachers and how much progress they were making. the one boy olbelto
(who liked beth lol) knew 3 languages and was working on a 4th...while
we were down there me and beth became friends with two girls around our
age and became pen pals...the roads down there are so much different.
welll there are no roads...its just dirt or pavement that has a bunch
holes and ditches and bumps in it...they have no stop signs or stop
lights or anything like that. its pretty much a free for all which
makes it so dangerous...but its something they have become accustomed
too. that reminds me that on my birthday i almost died in the
truck...from drifting backwards...lol and im not kidding...but thank
god that it stopped. the time that we spent driving was the time that i
spent in the back of a pick up truck crammed between people. the food
was very different. spaghetti and hot dogs for breakfast one morning.
our thanksgiving dinner (well they dont celebrate thanksgiving but its
the meal that we had when it was turkey day back here in the states)
was goat...yeah i said goat. lol but besides that...the poverty down
there is something that you can't expirence anywhere else...and its not
like me telling you is gonna give you the slightest clue...i thought
that i was emotionally ready for this trip..i knew so much from the
speeches and talks that i've heard about previous trips but i wasn't
ready in the least bit. it's something that you don't know about untill
you expirence it and gosh im so unbeliveably thankful that i was able
to expierence it. i'm excited to go back and help out again..theres so
much that needs done down there...i must say though...i was ready to
come home.
i missed my mother and my brother and ashley and ben and megan
mcfarland and the boats and everyone else. lol it was so good to come
home. school on thursday was good. came in to a hug from my wife ashley
and a kick ass story from megan. so went about getting caught up in my
classes. worked my flipping butt off....it was crazy...finally all
caught up i believe...
friday night i came home and miss megan sager came over for about 10
minutes...that little terd got me a bday present...it was cute.. and
then my dad picked me up and took me out for a present..came
home...grabbed a jacket and stuff and then ben picked me up. headed out
to his holiday brass thing at counselor with jesse. stood out in the
cold for about 45 minutes and yeah i was freezing but it was a good
concert thing...got me in the mood for christmas...took jesse home and
then went back to bens. watched the day after tomorrow and then at 10
we headed over to the movies...met up with kyle and ashley and went and
saw harry potter at flipping 10:30. haha amazing...it was good. i fell
asleep though..i felt so bad but i just couldnt keeep my eyes
open...movie got over around 1. mr freer picked me and ash up and we
headed home. came home and got on here till about 2:30.
saturday woke up about 6. got ready...packed and headed out to philly
to visit jen and do some shopping. got there around 8. stopped at some
places...went and saw jens dorm and then headed over to king of
prussia..omgsh absoutley amazing im must say. shopped till we dropped
litterally. headed back to the hotel and went to bed around 11. sunday
slept in till about 10 and got up...got a shower and all that good
stuff and headed home. got home and worked on homework the rest of the
day.
this week has been good so far...really getting caught up or atelast im
trying to...other than that its just been getting ready for christmas
and loving every minute of life. i must say i have the greatest people
in my life...ever. day after day it still amazes me how much they do
for me without even realizing it..thank you so much you guys...i love
you!
so things with ben couldn't be better. he makes me laugh, smile and just all around happy. wow he's amazing!  <3
so there's this wife of mine...that never fails to amaze me. oh my goodness so flipping happy for her! haha i loveee you! <3
and then megan mcfarland...what can i say other than someone who types
me a 2 page story on how muched they missed me...yeah shes so flipping
great! i love you meg! <3
okay so this was to long..should hold me off untill christmas...hah
maybe i'll update sometime next week...who knows...you dont know..i
dont know...cause who knows what i'll be doing...hah okay im done
i swear.
im such a dork...hah. im done.
<3
madelyn rose
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